Girl in a big world.

Wednesday 8th October 2008.


Ok, so today didn't go quite to plan, but everything turned out for the better anyway so it doesn't really matter.
Some people today have made me really notice about how we all live completely wrapped up in our own little world completely careless to the worlds of others. I know some people are more prone to this than others but we can all be counted in this in some way or another. It's just never as obvious if your world's quite big. It's when you own world's small and you refuse to open it up a bit that it starts to cause conflict.
Today i was talking to a friend about how people moan about when their friends change when they've been in a relationship. This is unbelievably narrow minded to say it. When you think about it, yes, they have changed but it's impossible not to. The chances are that when they met you they changed too, because we all change all the time, and that isn't what causes the problems. It's when the people that surround you aren't invited to make the change with you or to just watch you change, that causes the problems. Which is understandable, no one likes to be intentionally or unintentionally left behind.So when you meet someone new be aware that the chances are you're going to change, but change can be good. Just make sure you don't leave people behind that you need, or more importantly the ones that need you.

Your priorities determine your progress.
Girl in a big world.
x.

Girl going to Argentina.

Tuesday 7^th October 2008.

 

Who knew what tomorrow could bring?

This time yesterday I wasn’t exactly feeling brilliant… but today!

There seems to be a light part way down the tunnel, it may not be the final solution but it’s definitely on the way.  It’s also a good mile stone for me too.

I’m being given a life changing opportunity.  It’s something that I will learn a million things from, not only educational but also life lessons that aren’t always available in a normal situation. 

Also I’m completely optimistic for tomorrow.  I know we can make a difference we just need everyone behind us all the way.  I don’t want to look back on this time and say I just sat back and watched it happen.  I want a clean conscious and say I’ve done every bit to help.

Which also links to wanting to see the world as it is, before it all changes.  I’m so thankful for this opportunity… but I do believe to a certain extent we can make our own opportunities every day.

 

Be the change you want to see in the world.

Girl going to Argentina.

x.

Girl making it matter.

Sunday 5^th October 2008.

 

What is it exactly that matters?

Is it the way people act towards you, or the way you act towards people?

I know as much as the next person how nice it feels when someone says something nice about you.  But knowing that is surely why it’s so important to do it to other people.  Otherwise no one would ever experience that feeling.

By the same standards should we say the bad things to people?  Sometimes it’s just being rude, or to satisfy ourselves, but do we actually acknowledge how it makes other people feel?  Especially if they don’t mean to do the crime you’re blaming them for.

As nice as the feeling is of people being nice to you, we all need to learn to love the feeling of being nice towards someone else.

There are some people that are worth the compliments you give them, and you know who they are.  They’re different for everyone.  Isn’t it funny how you perceive compliments off different people?  Why is one person’s opinion so much more valuable than others?

When it comes down to it at the end of your life most the things that you worry about now and take up the most of your time won’t matter at all.  It all comes down to two things.

Have you experienced true joy in your life?

Have you brought true joy to the lives of others?

If you can’t answer those questions then was it all actually worth it?

 

Girl making it matter.

x.

Girl with a lot.

Saturday 4^th October 2008.

 

Sorry it’s late.

I had my friends round last night; people I’ve grown up with and slowly become dependant on.  A few years ago I didn’t know I’d be this close with them, but now I couldn’t imagine it any other way. 

I love the feeling that you can feel so comfortable with someone.  But what is it that deciphers whether you feel comfortable or not?  It can’t just be the fact I’ve known them for a long time, because there are a lot of people I’ve known for a long time, but I don’t feel comfortable around them.  I think it’s more likely to be the people themselves and the way they click with my personality. 

I’ve always got on with boys better than I do with girls.  Of course I have my times when I want to sit at home and have a girly night in, but the majority of the time I’d rather have the lads round too, purely because I have more fun when I’m with them too.

But talking about being friends with guys would imply I know how they think… I’m afraid not.  I can understand them when we’re friends… but as soon as I’m in a relationship or I like someone then all of that knowledge flies out the window and suddenly I don’t think rationally.  For that reason and that reason alone, guys annoy the hell out of me.  But if we knew everything about everyone then where would the fun be in that.

 

Personal:  don’t read these bulletins if they annoy you, but just because they annoy you doesn’t mean I’m going to stop.  I began writing them for me, and me only, but now I’ve found out a lot of other people enjoy them too.  So get over yourself and just ignore them if they annoy you that much.  But my guess is these don’t annoy you, it’s just your only current link to me that you can pick at.

 

A friend is a person who knows what you’re saying, even though you’re not talking.

Girl with a lot.

x.

 

Girl with plenty of evidence.

Frida​y 3rd Octob​er 2008.​

How is it that we diffe​renti​ate betwe​en frien​ds?​ Why is one bette​r than anoth​er?​ 
Today​ I’ve disco​vered​ that diffe​rent peopl​e find diffe​rent attri​butes​ impor​tant in a frien​d.​ Some merel​y need someo​ne to liste​n;​ some need someo​ne to talk with.​ Some want someo​ne to help them;​ some want someo​ne to help.​ There​ are no corre​ct crite​ria for a frien​d,​ as long as they fit yours​.​ 
But all of our needs​ chang​e from day to day, so how is it that the perso​n who liste​ned yeste​rday,​ can be the perso​n for you to talk with today​?​ I belie​ve that is what makes​ one bette​r than anoth​er.​ 
Someo​ne who knows​ how you’r​e feeli​ng just by the way you walk into a room is someo​ne you never​ want to walk out of that room.​ But by the same stand​ards a good frien​d is no use to you unles​s you are a good frien​d in retur​n.​ 
Can you have more than one best frien​d or does that defy the title​ of a best frien​d?​ 
Why in our life do we find it so imper​ative​ that we must have frien​ds?​ I know that I’d be lost witho​ut them.​ I am a lot close​r with some of my frien​ds than I am with my famil​y,​ and I would​n’t want it any other​ way.
I can’t​ write​ sophi​stica​ted enoug​h to even begin​ to put into words​ what it is a frien​d does to our lives​.​ I don’t​ have cleve​r witty​ quote​s or reels​ of descr​iptio​n of one. 
But I do have evide​nce,​ very stron​g evide​nce it is as well.​

Why does hot choco​late make you feel so good?​
Girl with plent​y of evide​nce.​
x.

Girl waiting to fall.

Thursday 2^nd October 2008.

 

Do people love too easily? … Or not enough? 

When people get together these days they seem to be madly in love, before they actually know each other.  Think of the last person you ‘loved’.  Do you know their favourite colour?  Their birthday?  Their most embarrassing moment?  In most circumstances the unfortunate answers to these questions is a reoccurring no. 

So why do we feel the need to fall in love with someone so quickly.  Is it because of the social pressure of being in a relationship?  It could also be linked to the way we grow up so soon and we’re just trying to impersonate an adult relationship.  Shouldn’t a teenage relationship be about spending time together, having fun, learning and growing together?  It shouldn’t be about going through life altering events and swearing our undying love towards each other, we have our whole lives for that. 

But on the other hand should love be something that is decided in an instant, or is that just lust disguised as love?

Just as people fall in love too easily these days, people fall out of it too; a lot more than they did years ago.  This would be apparent that maybe we don’t actually love as true as we once did. 

As frightening as it would be to spend your whole life with someone and for them to die and leave you alone.  Don’t you think it’d be a lot more frightening to not experience that?

I’m starting to truly believe in real love.  Not the love that my generation at the moment go through.  Because at the moment we’re still learning about ourselves, so how can we love someone who doesn’t even know who they are?  But that’s not to say that the future can’t bring something different…

I know that love isn’t in the same category as lust; in fact it’s quite an insult to put it there.  Love should be paired with companionship and contentment. 

 

Journeys begin when you meet love.

Girl waiting to fall.

x.

Girl having fun.

Wednesday 1^st October 2008.

 

White rabbits.

Some people are unbelievably oblivious to everyone else.  Why do they put so much effort into something that gives them nothing in return, and makes them look stupid in the process?  I know it’s something we all swear we’d never do, and then when it comes down to it we find ourselves following that forbidden path… but why do we let ourselves become so obsessed with other people that it ends up altering our original morals?

I can honestly put my hands up and say I’ve done it.  But now I’ve realised I’ve done it in the past I don’t think I’d fall onto that path again any where near as easily.  So what makes other people so different that they find themselves trundling along that path that has no end on more than one occasion? 

While the people in question are on that path, even though they’re so fixated on another person then become very selfish towards other people.  Obviously no one else matters.

I’m not going to say that they think they’re the centre of the universe, because I truly hate that saying.  In metaphorical terms everyone is the centre of their own life.  We might not all admit to it, but we certainly all know it. 

But then there are the people that do admit to thinking they’re the centre of their universe.  Like me.  I will admit I think that, but I also realise that everyone else does.  So I compromise a lot and acknowledge other people’s feelings… something a lot of people need to do a lot more.

That’s why oblivious people really do rub me up the wrong way.

 

Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.

Girl having fun.

x.