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Wednesday 7th July 2010
Well I guess it keeps getting longer between my blogs. I've just got the app for my phone so hopefully I'll clock in a little more.
I've been on my own tonight and got quite thoughtful. It's the anniversary of the London bombings today. I can't even imagine what today will bring for some people. How they lost their loved ones without getting to say their goodbyes. I wonder if everybody knew they were loved. I wonder how many regrets still lie in those undergrounds? I wonder if those thoughts still live inside of their family?
I know that the people I love mean the absolute world to me, and I'd do anything for each one of them. However, I've also learnt that the old tales are true. Someone else picks your family for you, and though we may not always agree with that choice it must have been made for a reason. I just wonder if it's to make me a stronger person, or whether to just prove that they're weak.
I guess everybody sees the world through different eyes and in a different light. That's what caused the 7/7 disaster. I know nothing will ever change people's views, I just hope one day we'll be able to understand one another. Because it's a sad moment when you realise not even your family try to understand you. We just have to hope for the rest of the world.
Girl realising.
x.
Tuesday, 6 July 2010
Monday, 29 March 2010
Girl drawing.
Monday 29th March 2010
Just thought I'd upload a picture I've just drawn. It's the thing on my mind at the moment and I guess a picture says a thousand words.
Girl drawing.
x.
Just thought I'd upload a picture I've just drawn. It's the thing on my mind at the moment and I guess a picture says a thousand words.
Girl drawing.
x.
Monday, 22 March 2010
Girl believing.
Monday 22nd March 2009.
So, it's been a while.
I honestly can't remember the last time I wrote this, I just know that around that time the only response I heard from it was negative. And it's never easy to write something that no one else believes in anymore.
But things have changed over the last year, mostly for the better. I've found the man of my dreams (for real this time as well I think!), moved house again and turned eighteen.
Just the other day I was talking to two of my best friends, and the topic got onto life after death. How many people believe in it I wonder? Well for years on end I've stood stubbornly against the idea, but simply over the last week I've been reconsidering it.
My brother told me a story of my favourite Aunt, who I used to write to quite frequently. She had bone cancer, and for ten years more than the doctors gave her she fought it. Her husband, Jim, looked after her and they lived together happily. Until, one day he had a stroke, and suddenly it became a lot more difficult. The following Easter Jim died, and I vividly remember seeing my Aunt waving at his coffin as it went. I wrote to her much more after this, and time after time she told me of how lonely she was. Then she became more sick as the New Year came and the day before she died she told the hospital staff that she was going on holiday, that Jim was taking her, and they were going to Paradise. She died the next day; Valentine's Day.
I do miss writing letters to her, and going to visit.
But, it's stories like that that I find incredibly hard not to believe in. I can honestly put my hand to my heart and say I can't believe in the Bible... but there are some other things I'm finding it difficult to do so with. And at the end of the day, if I were to believe that you can be with your loved ones after life and I'm wrong, I haven't lost anything - but I've gained a lifetime of hope and belief.
Goodbye, to a young girl who was full of life.
Sleep peacefully Tess.
Girl believing.
x.
So, it's been a while.
I honestly can't remember the last time I wrote this, I just know that around that time the only response I heard from it was negative. And it's never easy to write something that no one else believes in anymore.
But things have changed over the last year, mostly for the better. I've found the man of my dreams (for real this time as well I think!), moved house again and turned eighteen.
Just the other day I was talking to two of my best friends, and the topic got onto life after death. How many people believe in it I wonder? Well for years on end I've stood stubbornly against the idea, but simply over the last week I've been reconsidering it.
My brother told me a story of my favourite Aunt, who I used to write to quite frequently. She had bone cancer, and for ten years more than the doctors gave her she fought it. Her husband, Jim, looked after her and they lived together happily. Until, one day he had a stroke, and suddenly it became a lot more difficult. The following Easter Jim died, and I vividly remember seeing my Aunt waving at his coffin as it went. I wrote to her much more after this, and time after time she told me of how lonely she was. Then she became more sick as the New Year came and the day before she died she told the hospital staff that she was going on holiday, that Jim was taking her, and they were going to Paradise. She died the next day; Valentine's Day.
I do miss writing letters to her, and going to visit.
But, it's stories like that that I find incredibly hard not to believe in. I can honestly put my hand to my heart and say I can't believe in the Bible... but there are some other things I'm finding it difficult to do so with. And at the end of the day, if I were to believe that you can be with your loved ones after life and I'm wrong, I haven't lost anything - but I've gained a lifetime of hope and belief.
Goodbye, to a young girl who was full of life.
Sleep peacefully Tess.
Girl believing.
x.
Friday, 7 August 2009
Girl living the life.
Friday 7th August 2009.
I don't remember the last time I was this happy all round.
I've always regarded a relationship as being fragile happiness, something that undeniably made you happy - but a happiness that wasn't stable and you're always scared of it being taken away from you at any moment. But for the first time ever, I don't feel like the mat of happiness could be pulled from beneath my feet without a lot of persuasion.
It's also amazing to be able to have your friends and family get on with your boyfriend without them slagging him off when he goes or moaning about certain things.
I think this summer is going to be The Summer. Everyone seems to have a summer they look back to of their childhood/ youth and can't help but smile at how blissfully happy they were and trouble free. I know any problems I have now I'll just look back on in a year or two and laugh at how easy they were, so I figure if I just look at it like that now then it should all seem easy straight away and I can just carry on with being happy.
Happy times make happy memories... Memories last forever.
Girl living the life.
x.
I don't remember the last time I was this happy all round.
I've always regarded a relationship as being fragile happiness, something that undeniably made you happy - but a happiness that wasn't stable and you're always scared of it being taken away from you at any moment. But for the first time ever, I don't feel like the mat of happiness could be pulled from beneath my feet without a lot of persuasion.
It's also amazing to be able to have your friends and family get on with your boyfriend without them slagging him off when he goes or moaning about certain things.
I think this summer is going to be The Summer. Everyone seems to have a summer they look back to of their childhood/ youth and can't help but smile at how blissfully happy they were and trouble free. I know any problems I have now I'll just look back on in a year or two and laugh at how easy they were, so I figure if I just look at it like that now then it should all seem easy straight away and I can just carry on with being happy.
Happy times make happy memories... Memories last forever.
Girl living the life.
x.
Sunday, 2 August 2009
Girl blissfully happy.
Sunday 2nd August 2009.
Again, it's been a while since I've shouted out to the world so I thought I'd better keep my masses of hooked fans something to read... (in my dreams!).
Well my main motive for writing originally was somewhere and someone to moan to about everything I believed was wrong in the world and how I could put everything to right and the world would become perfect... but just lately I seem to have lost that motive completely. Everything in my life seems to be going well, no major disasters and everyone is happy.
Life is still challenging and demanding at times but then it wouldn't be life if it was anything but.
I couldn't ask for better people to be surrounded by, even if my best friends do insist on teasing me about the boy scenario... I guess it's only pay back for the many years I've sat singing childish songs to them whenever a new guy is on the scene. All's fair in love and war, and all that jazz.
So yeah, the life of Carly Davis is heading towards its peak.
Girl blissfully happy.
x.
Again, it's been a while since I've shouted out to the world so I thought I'd better keep my masses of hooked fans something to read... (in my dreams!).
Well my main motive for writing originally was somewhere and someone to moan to about everything I believed was wrong in the world and how I could put everything to right and the world would become perfect... but just lately I seem to have lost that motive completely. Everything in my life seems to be going well, no major disasters and everyone is happy.
Life is still challenging and demanding at times but then it wouldn't be life if it was anything but.
I couldn't ask for better people to be surrounded by, even if my best friends do insist on teasing me about the boy scenario... I guess it's only pay back for the many years I've sat singing childish songs to them whenever a new guy is on the scene. All's fair in love and war, and all that jazz.
So yeah, the life of Carly Davis is heading towards its peak.
Girl blissfully happy.
x.
Saturday, 11 July 2009
Girl acousticed.
Saturday 11th July 2009.
Today has been pretty awesome. I've spent the day with friends I hardly ever see and when I do it's like we haven't had the six months void inbetween.
Then tonight with friends that I've actually seen more in the last few weeks than in the last six months and again it never has any empty spaces.
The guys came around this evening with their guitars ready to join me with my new electro acoustic that I can only just get something resembling a tune out of. Now I'm writing this sitting with them as they're writing something, I'm not exactly sure whether I can call it a song yet but whatever it is is really nice. I can't wait until I can actually play.
I love being able to sit in on a Saturday night with two great friends and do nothing but make music, or at least on my behalf listen to music. Life has to be good from here.
You need to be surrounded by people that inspire you and make you want to life yourself higher, and there's nothing nicer than knowing the people that can do this are the people you enjoy being with. For a change this isn't just based on my personal experiences, it can be spread across at least the three of us here tonight.
More nights like this should be scheduled for this summer.
That metallic taste of music.
Girl acousticed.
x.
Today has been pretty awesome. I've spent the day with friends I hardly ever see and when I do it's like we haven't had the six months void inbetween.
Then tonight with friends that I've actually seen more in the last few weeks than in the last six months and again it never has any empty spaces.
The guys came around this evening with their guitars ready to join me with my new electro acoustic that I can only just get something resembling a tune out of. Now I'm writing this sitting with them as they're writing something, I'm not exactly sure whether I can call it a song yet but whatever it is is really nice. I can't wait until I can actually play.
I love being able to sit in on a Saturday night with two great friends and do nothing but make music, or at least on my behalf listen to music. Life has to be good from here.
You need to be surrounded by people that inspire you and make you want to life yourself higher, and there's nothing nicer than knowing the people that can do this are the people you enjoy being with. For a change this isn't just based on my personal experiences, it can be spread across at least the three of us here tonight.
More nights like this should be scheduled for this summer.
That metallic taste of music.
Girl acousticed.
x.
Friday, 10 July 2009
Girl picking the people.
Friday 10th July 2009.
Billy's Birthday.
What is it that makes your life important? Is it whether you have what you want? Is it whether you give others what they want? Is it whether you're where you need to be? Is it who you're with? Out of all of these I don't think there's one answer for everyone, as we change every day and that's not a bad thing. The worst thing would be only being fixated on one of these aspects. Which the more I think about it the more I notice that a lot of people are.
It's actually quite theraputic to just sit and wonder what it is that makes your life so important. As soon as I ever ask myself that question I just get visions of certain people's faces, which leads me to believe that it's the people in my life that make it so good. Of course the places you are and the things you have will always embellish the rest of your living but the core of your life will always be branched out by the people who hold the foundations for you... But then that's just my opinion.
There are plenty of people that are happy with just what they have not who they have. Although I can't help but question their actual happiness.
What makes your life so important? Even if the importance only lies within your hands, it's still important nevertheless.
"Do you want a lover or do you want a life?"
Girl picking the people.
x.
Billy's Birthday.
What is it that makes your life important? Is it whether you have what you want? Is it whether you give others what they want? Is it whether you're where you need to be? Is it who you're with? Out of all of these I don't think there's one answer for everyone, as we change every day and that's not a bad thing. The worst thing would be only being fixated on one of these aspects. Which the more I think about it the more I notice that a lot of people are.
It's actually quite theraputic to just sit and wonder what it is that makes your life so important. As soon as I ever ask myself that question I just get visions of certain people's faces, which leads me to believe that it's the people in my life that make it so good. Of course the places you are and the things you have will always embellish the rest of your living but the core of your life will always be branched out by the people who hold the foundations for you... But then that's just my opinion.
There are plenty of people that are happy with just what they have not who they have. Although I can't help but question their actual happiness.
What makes your life so important? Even if the importance only lies within your hands, it's still important nevertheless.
"Do you want a lover or do you want a life?"
Girl picking the people.
x.
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