Girl with a future?

Saturday 14th March 2009.

So, I spent last night with one best friend and today with another. And my, my what a brilliant time I've had. The Future seems to have cropped up in conversation a lot just lately, maybe because it's actually starting to poke its nose upon our horizon and we're all becoming curious about what shape it is actually going to take.
For years now I've been so excited about leaving Walsall and going to university to study the one thing I care about 100% and learning to live independently. Now don't get me wrong for a minute, I'm still unexplainably excited about these things, but as I see it rising bigger and bigger in front of me in the shape of My Future, it feels a little more daunting every day.
What if I can't do it and I'm not as good at things as I like to think I am?
Also today my friend and I discussed, over drinks in Starbucks, five things we want by the time we're thirty. Mine were:
A stable relationship.
A dog.
A home of my own.
A good job that I love.
A walk-in-wardrobe.
Now that I've shared them publically I think I'll strive even harder to fulfill them just so it doesn't appear as failure to more people than just myself.
At this moment in time we can still get excited about our future at thirty because that's still hiding behind a big hill and won't lurk on the brim of our horizon for a long time yet.
So, yeah, I'll just distract myself from My Future of university by imagining that huge walk-in-wardrobe.

Girl with a future?
x.