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Monday 24th November 2008.
Just been on the phone with the guy from the BBC to discuss exactly what he wants to film for his documentary and all that sort of thing. I do have to say that it all seems so exciting!
On the other hand why do people confuse me so much most of the time. When you think about it life is seriously crammed full with all the torments and challenges delicately stringed together with the nice moments. These are the moments that lead us to believe we are happy even when we're living under circumstances we aren't actually happy with.
I live for these moments, as do a lot of other people I'm sure.
Moving into the new flat tonight.
Our new start.
Girl on the move again.
x.
Monday, 24 November 2008
Sunday, 23 November 2008
Girl unsure.
Sunday 23rd November 2008.
I don't quite understand why people are so unsure of everything. Maybe they always have been and now I'm only just realising it.
If someone's your best friend surely they're supposed to be able to forgive and forget. If they don't then eventually you learn to live with it and hopefully not make the same mistakes again. On the other hand how are you supposed to react when they do forgive and forget... but only for a while before they bring it all back up again.
Maybe that's why people are so unsure of everything. We never can predict the stability of a friendship.
Friendships are supposed to be the strongest relationship you could ever have. So why does it get so easily pushed to the side and quickly replaced?
Hopefully I'll get better at the friendship thing...
Books and friends should be good but few.
Girl unsure.
x.
I don't quite understand why people are so unsure of everything. Maybe they always have been and now I'm only just realising it.
If someone's your best friend surely they're supposed to be able to forgive and forget. If they don't then eventually you learn to live with it and hopefully not make the same mistakes again. On the other hand how are you supposed to react when they do forgive and forget... but only for a while before they bring it all back up again.
Maybe that's why people are so unsure of everything. We never can predict the stability of a friendship.
Friendships are supposed to be the strongest relationship you could ever have. So why does it get so easily pushed to the side and quickly replaced?
Hopefully I'll get better at the friendship thing...
Books and friends should be good but few.
Girl unsure.
x.
Saturday, 22 November 2008
Girl surprised.
Saturday 22nd November 2008.
Well today has been very busy. We went all the way to Wales to go and pick a table up off my dad's friend. Good chats about uni in the back of the car on the way there, and I became very hairy from the dog very soon after we got there.
I got laughed at because I didn't know the colours of football teams' kits.
Later on this evening I've had an amazing surprise.
You don't really realise just how much you've missed someone until you suddenly see them again. Everything around me has altered lately but it hasn't really changed.. and then in waltzes my Navy guy. He's grown up and changed so much. It's amazing to see someone fulfilling what they've always wanted to do. They may have done it differently to how I would have and I have judged them, but now it's perfectly clear to me that they're exactly where they want to be, even if they did do it slightly different.
People change. I know that without a doubt. One comforting thing to remember though is that however much people may change relationships can always remain.
Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.
Girl surprised.
x.
Well today has been very busy. We went all the way to Wales to go and pick a table up off my dad's friend. Good chats about uni in the back of the car on the way there, and I became very hairy from the dog very soon after we got there.
I got laughed at because I didn't know the colours of football teams' kits.
Later on this evening I've had an amazing surprise.
You don't really realise just how much you've missed someone until you suddenly see them again. Everything around me has altered lately but it hasn't really changed.. and then in waltzes my Navy guy. He's grown up and changed so much. It's amazing to see someone fulfilling what they've always wanted to do. They may have done it differently to how I would have and I have judged them, but now it's perfectly clear to me that they're exactly where they want to be, even if they did do it slightly different.
People change. I know that without a doubt. One comforting thing to remember though is that however much people may change relationships can always remain.
Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.
Girl surprised.
x.
Friday, 21 November 2008
Girl looking at the past.
Friday 21st November 2008.
Have you ever had a day that brought you rushing into your past?
Today is another step into my new life, however as I'm walking into it I seemed to have stopped to turn around and be reminded of how it used to be - perhaps how it should have been. I guess life isn't about 'should have been'.
It's a nice reminder and lovely to recall some of the happiest times of my life, as long as I remember that they're in the past. Happy times can be recreated in new adventures.
The happiest times in your life are often those that were never amazingly outstanding at the time, but when you look back on them you think that it couldn't have been any better... if only you'd have appreciated it a little more at the time. Or is that not the case at all? Maybe just because it isn't perfect right now we fool ourselves into believeing that perhaps that was perfection? Maybe neither were, we just still haven't found it yet.
I guess all we can do is continue along our path in hope of finding this 'perfection' somewhere along the way.
The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself. - Anna Quindlen.
Girl looking at the past.
x.
Have you ever had a day that brought you rushing into your past?
Today is another step into my new life, however as I'm walking into it I seemed to have stopped to turn around and be reminded of how it used to be - perhaps how it should have been. I guess life isn't about 'should have been'.
It's a nice reminder and lovely to recall some of the happiest times of my life, as long as I remember that they're in the past. Happy times can be recreated in new adventures.
The happiest times in your life are often those that were never amazingly outstanding at the time, but when you look back on them you think that it couldn't have been any better... if only you'd have appreciated it a little more at the time. Or is that not the case at all? Maybe just because it isn't perfect right now we fool ourselves into believeing that perhaps that was perfection? Maybe neither were, we just still haven't found it yet.
I guess all we can do is continue along our path in hope of finding this 'perfection' somewhere along the way.
The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself. - Anna Quindlen.
Girl looking at the past.
x.
Thursday, 20 November 2008
Girl pretty sweet.
Thursday 20th November 2008.
I've just hunted through boxes looking for Great Expectations. Not to worry though, it's been located! I'm extremely pleased to find my last page still indicated with an old train ticket. I must have been reading it on the train to my mom's.
So life seems pretty sweet on the daily basis at the moment. I got an A on an essay in Literature, I finished my book (you have to love that feeling), I'm being interviewed for the BBC and the new flat is lovely and homely.
I guess life is amazingly unpredictable and is always lurching in the most unexpected corner ready to frighten us to death or greet us with a welcoming hand. The juxtaposition of one day to the next is engaging, always keeping us tuned in. That is life though isn't it. It wouldn't be called living if it didn't nearly kill us every now and again.
Don't take life too seriously, no one gets out of it alive anyway.
Girl pretty sweet.
x.
I've just hunted through boxes looking for Great Expectations. Not to worry though, it's been located! I'm extremely pleased to find my last page still indicated with an old train ticket. I must have been reading it on the train to my mom's.
So life seems pretty sweet on the daily basis at the moment. I got an A on an essay in Literature, I finished my book (you have to love that feeling), I'm being interviewed for the BBC and the new flat is lovely and homely.
I guess life is amazingly unpredictable and is always lurching in the most unexpected corner ready to frighten us to death or greet us with a welcoming hand. The juxtaposition of one day to the next is engaging, always keeping us tuned in. That is life though isn't it. It wouldn't be called living if it didn't nearly kill us every now and again.
Don't take life too seriously, no one gets out of it alive anyway.
Girl pretty sweet.
x.
Wednesday, 19 November 2008
Girl working hard.
Wednesday 19th November 2008.
Today I went to Cambridge University. A real eye opener.
I've always known it was perhaps The best university in the country, however I've never really accepted that until today. Just walking around, you don't even need to go into it, to understand this. You can almost feel the knowledge drifting around you. The want - almost the need to plunge into it is present in every corner of the campus.
The people that walk around you seem almost real. Unthinkable isn't it? They even act real, and normal too. Surely people that clever don't actually live in the same way we do?!
I've never been to a place that holds so much beauty, knowledge and history in such a small place. There's not a alcove, corner or crevis that doesn't have a story to tell. Eight hundred years worth of lives have passed through the doors, leaving as a different person as to when you walked in. Only spending five and a half hours there, and I already feel different.
I know how hard I have to work now, I'm unbelievably determind.
Also.
Got the keys today. It's not quite Cambridge manner, but it's cosy and homely. I walked in and felt more at home than I ever did at Hawley. Going to really make it work.
Sometimes, against all expectations things do get better. Little by little.
Girl working hard.
x.
Today I went to Cambridge University. A real eye opener.
I've always known it was perhaps The best university in the country, however I've never really accepted that until today. Just walking around, you don't even need to go into it, to understand this. You can almost feel the knowledge drifting around you. The want - almost the need to plunge into it is present in every corner of the campus.
The people that walk around you seem almost real. Unthinkable isn't it? They even act real, and normal too. Surely people that clever don't actually live in the same way we do?!
I've never been to a place that holds so much beauty, knowledge and history in such a small place. There's not a alcove, corner or crevis that doesn't have a story to tell. Eight hundred years worth of lives have passed through the doors, leaving as a different person as to when you walked in. Only spending five and a half hours there, and I already feel different.
I know how hard I have to work now, I'm unbelievably determind.
Also.
Got the keys today. It's not quite Cambridge manner, but it's cosy and homely. I walked in and felt more at home than I ever did at Hawley. Going to really make it work.
Sometimes, against all expectations things do get better. Little by little.
Girl working hard.
x.
Tuesday, 18 November 2008
Girl opportunistic.
Tuesday 18th November 2008.
A day and half!
Lost in translation is a term to define today. People constantly not understanding the message you're trying to portray to them... Usually they're perfectly capable of understanding it, they just don't want to admit it to themselves. God forbid they'd actually put a foot out of place!
On the other had a wonderful opportunity. I had a phone call off someone from the UK Youth Climate Coalition, saying they wanted young people to go to a march protest taking place in Hyde Park on 6th December and to do an interview with BBC. We'd been reccommended for it and they've invited us down!
Can't wait!!
It's not how you begin, it's how you end.
Girl opportunistic.
x.
A day and half!
Lost in translation is a term to define today. People constantly not understanding the message you're trying to portray to them... Usually they're perfectly capable of understanding it, they just don't want to admit it to themselves. God forbid they'd actually put a foot out of place!
On the other had a wonderful opportunity. I had a phone call off someone from the UK Youth Climate Coalition, saying they wanted young people to go to a march protest taking place in Hyde Park on 6th December and to do an interview with BBC. We'd been reccommended for it and they've invited us down!
Can't wait!!
It's not how you begin, it's how you end.
Girl opportunistic.
x.
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